million dollar market

Jul 16

It’s so early.

I should have left my apartment an hour ago.


Stress levels peaking.

Wish I could quit.


Jul 4

300.02 Generalized Anxiety Disorder

A. Excessive anxiety and worry (apprehensive expectation), occurring more days than not for at least six months, about a number of events or activities (such as work or school performance).

B. The person finds it difficult to control the worry.

C. The anxiety and worry are associated with three (or more) of the following six symptoms (with at least some symptoms present for more days than not for the past six months). Note: Only one item is required in children.

D. The focus of the anxiety and worry is not confined to features of an Axis I disorder, e.g., the anxiety or worry is not about having a Panic Attack (as in Panic Disorder), being embarrassed in public (as in Social Phobia), being contaminated (as in Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder), gaining weight (as in Anorexia Nervosa), having multiple physical complaints (as in Somatization Disorder), or having a serious illness (as in Hypochondriasis), and the anxiety and worry do not occur exclusively during Posttraumatic Stress Disorder.

E. The anxiety, worry, or physical symptoms cause clinically significant distress or impairment in social, occupational, or other important areas of functioning.

F. The disturbance is not due to the direct physiological effects of a substance (e.g., a drug of abuse, a medication) or a general medical condition (e.g., hyperthyroidism) and does not occur exclusively during a Mood Disorder, a Psychotic Disorder, or a Pervasive Developmental Disorder.


Jun 20

Sometimes we forget to stop moving.

Really interested in motion recently.


Stop cancelling appointments / taking vacations, Dr. B.

Wish I could think about things that weren’t motion.


May 20

Being outside all day as a cure for sour mood.

Being outside all day as an agent for forgetting.


Very bizarre dreams; recognition and realization; working harder.

Wish I were doing better in school.


May 18

Things I could reach and examine but will not:

five stamps
A People’s History of the United States by Howard Zinn
NatureMade brand liquid softgel multivitamins
coupon for $15 to emusic.com
checkbook
The Satanic Verses by Salman Rushdie
microphone
acoustic guitar
picture of a pig’s skull
yoga mat
unidentified antibiotic ointment
some CDs
MetroCard
some w33d
some pedals
closed drawers
scissors
boat shoes
mouthwash
Knitting for Dummies by Pam Allen, Tracy L. Barr, and Shannon Okey


May 15

This is the last post about Smashing Pumpkins, alright?

But really, guys, that 1-2-3 Mayonnaise-Spaceboy-Silverfuck near the end of Siamese Dream, I mean, why does anyone even bother anymore?


Thanks, I wanted to go, but this sends a weird message, and I think you know what message that is.

Wish I had planned better.


May 12

Am I losing focus as a form of self-sabotage, Dr. B?

I mean, we could work on it or we could not, but I’d like to.


High-anxiety fantasy.

Wish I had security, dude.


May 6

This thing is alright for the time being, I guess.

Not much we could do about it, so I guess we’ll just go with it, I guess.


Billy Corgan in 1993 really understood how I feel in 2012.

Wish I were less of an adult baby and that I hadn’t missed the supermoon.


Apr 30

Where is my tax return?

I really need my tax return right now.


I guess maybe I’d like to go here before it drifts into the ocean.

Wish that everything (one thing, mostly) were certain.


Apr 29

Different Kinds of Black Holes:

Smashing Pumpkins Black Hole
Late Night YouTube Black Hole
Nirvana Black Hole
Liz Phair Black Hole
Steven Tyler Black Hole
Michael Dickman Black Hole
Tom Nevers Black Hole
Lee Edelman Black Hole
Levon Helm Black Hole
Hole Black Hole
Cat Pictures Black Hole
Cat Videos Black Hole
Kanzi the Bonobo Black Hole
Animal Cognition Black Hole
Get Rich Quick Black Hole
Mexican Food Black Hole
Fantasy Real Estate Black Hole
Danzig Black Hole
Nick Flynn Black Hole
Henry & Glenn Forever Black Hole
Not Going to the Gym Black Hole
Staring at Cellphone Black Hole
Compulsive Internet Monitoring Black Hole
Pay Attention to Me Black Hole
Stop Working All the Time Black Hole
Re-Invite Me to New Paltz on Thursday Black Hole
Paging Inga Black Hole
Gayle Rubin Black Hole
Summer Fitness Plan Black Hole


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